We are worlds apart.

I'm ready to blog about it... please bear with me.. this is not easy..

A few months ago, I met the most wonderful person. He and I just seem to fit. He makes me smile, he respects me, is a good person and I love talking with him and simply spending time with him.
It took a while before I was ready to bring this new relationship before God. I was afraid to hear. You see... he does not know Jesus.
I have searched online looking for anyone who could concur with the feelings I have but unfortunately all of the blogs, sites, chats mostly discussed how one is in danger of falling - in danger of becoming sexually active with their 'non-christian partner'. That is not my biggest worry, it is not my biggest fear.

What is tormenting me, is the fact that he just does not know. It breaks my heart. I sometimes feel like I am watching a child prepare to jump rope with friends.. You know.. how they rock back and forth before jumping between the ropes.. Do I jump? Do I wait?
It's like a constant game of hot and cold. And it breaks my heart.

I care for him deeply. I yearn for him to understand me when I talk about my walk. I can't blame him.. he just doesn't know.
Different worlds. - It breaks my heart!

I can't save him. I know that. It is all in God's hands. At this point, I unclench my fists and place him at your feet Lord. There is nothing more I can do.

I ask that you pray..
that I always listen to God's voice..
that He grant me patience and wisdom..
that He soften this man's heart..

I still beleive.